tuesday day of day

what a fool i dont know bout tomorrow what its like to bee.. gosh im really tired swam like one half hours and still for others it is too short lol..i am feeling bored+tired now.. i really miss smiling while walking and i do it real good today i mean the peace of God which surpasses all human understanding is guarding my heart..i use to call all those people whois praising God on the street as crazy+mad+stupid+taktahumalu+c2pid..now i know why people could sing out loud praising good..and these people are those who have really close intemacy with God well most of em..not saying myself la but THOSE.. i smell like a pool now i dont know why..did took my bath but the smell is still there and yes i did take my bath properly..

know what i really want a digital camera right now.. need to record down my life and sometimes as memories, i can just view it again and start thinking how stupid am i before.. suddenly my mood change crappy me... and i was just wondering how on earth AM i gonna get married..im soo soo ahh out of expectation in other words, lame..fully agree that i am t0 the max weak in the sense of a responsible person and character wise..just imagine that i have nothing man, not even a standard..im gonna be straight forward now really like those straight forward type.. what am i talking..God i just pray for open doors for the course im applying in and Lord i dont wanna be like thoese israelites going round and round the 'thang' for years if its not of your will send me back home.. im prepared. i got your picture, but i need a louder voice..like a horn from you so i can trigger your call.. just a loud shout God..thank you for your amazing grace these days and thank you for showing me whats life is all about..in Jesus name i pray and ask AMEN..