my dream.

OUT!!! please.
i tought about you today.. and believe me it wasnt at the right time..where did you bring me? i forget.. did u bring me to the same old place we use to go ? i miss it i really do.. i was dreaming the whole night long.. and yea the stupidest thing was i grin when the words went through my mind..well i was quiet tonight i try to control but i guess i pass while i was playing guitar.. i dint wanna go there but i let my imigination fly me there.. and it was really sweet indeed.. i recap on the post.. and i want it so bad to fulfil my own lust.. had an ice breaker game its something like "think of something that u did that someone dint do" the first time that came in mind was going after u... the time i spent.. funny innit 8 months of dieting just to go after a girl ? so selfish! and i dont know maybe its God's will do go our own way ? i judge too fast..i make decisions too fast and then after that i regret.. i go like owh fuck me..im standing in the natural now..where all the being think whats right just because they think its right..u know whats my mistake? my biggest mistake was knowing you.. my head is gonna fuckin blow.. im struggling inside.. i cant take it u know.. feel like singing this song.. walaupun aku sedar dan tahu tiada wanita didunia setanding mu.. oh fuck that crap...diary cant i be a little bit human at times? must i spoil peoples party ? now leo and min just drop by they went all the way to cheryls how to take my bag..God pamper me alot and i hate it :(.. i hate it when i have to feel awe all the time..but i still love God..i've change alot yes.. to be someone i never want to be.. bye diary thanxs for listening..