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my heart is healed from a big tear. i guess disappointment is the kind of fear i am afraid of. why am i going round and round again i ask myself. i tought i made a promise to myself not to fall into that same hole again. this time the hole is deep and i hit really hard on the ground that the feeling is as if my heart have a hole. why am i such a slow learner i ask God, and why must it has the same situation as before, i cried. but worry no more for i am healed a lil wound left but i am healed. i am not writing this entry in disappointment, im not, but rather a log i might want to read back in future and laugh at myself.

a lil bit of recap, what sort of girl do you like she asked, but i refused to tell whispering at my own heart, i said " a girl like you ". i smiled back and replied, it is not my time yet i suppose. so i add on in a funny way "no girl would want someone like me" she smiled and said something i should not type coz its not humble lol. hmm this should remind me in future =)