hmm my feelings own me.

aiya its this kinda feeling again... you know whenever you walked pass a couple doing all those "hand holding and caring for each other kinda thing" someone your heart desires the same thing as well...its really hard that sometimes if you really like someone, and that person has another person in mind, its really hard if you know you want to get closer to them, and you try so hard to appoarch and you end up speechless? its really hard sometimes if you really like that very one but knowing that MAYBE she has someone in mind.. it breaks your heart.. so i talked to God to give me courage because my heart is too fragile..my heart falls in love too quickly.. or in other sense like someone too easily haih..so i told God, its pain pain i need your peace.. and somehow if you really fall in love or like that very one.. you would do anything to make her comfortable? its like trow all the sufferings to you instead of her..

seriously Lord only you know me well.. only you who heals me..as you first introduce yourself in the bible "I am the Lord that heals" but sometimes pain pain..sometimes we do it so well that it doesnt look like pain pain ? how to avoid it? when i cant even control my own feelings? it just arise.. i cant force myself not to participate? it just jumps right in tru you then you have to call out for our saviour.. is it true that if we fall in love or like that very one we have to sacrife for someone she liked? in the other party its so unfair.. but to answer every question, save the best for what God had saved for you... that is what we call salvation :P i think i gone too much of this heart breaking thing.. i dont want my heart to get used to it or else i wont be able to love again.. i always tell myself dont go there chris else mr pain pain would come again.. but hey how leh it just goes like that.. haih lets submit to the captain and commander of our life..