whos the loser? *hands up*

if someone would give me a gun for christmas i ought to shoot myself with it.. i dont know i lost the will to live.. its just u know *BAM* lights off.. i just wish Lord you takecare of that.. selfish indeed but i had enough.. are you the Lord of man kind ? then when is your timing for me ? i feel like smashing my head on the table.. but i freakin cant coz ill wake derrick up.. im blowing up.. what is wrong with me O Lord? hear my pray.. cloth me Lord with your robe for i do not want this anymore... can you feel it Lord? it hurt a milion times..take me Lord..take me to your mansion .. to my room you've prepared for me..i wonder what happened to the last me..who is always on fire for you..in this land i cant feel your presence Lord not when im in malaysia..JUSTTAKEMEAWAYICANTFREAKINGSTANDITANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOMOREFREAKINLOVEMOVIESFORME... w h y m e sekian terimakasih.