IT IS DONE!

dear diary,
phew what a stressful week for me, yeah! i finished my assignment! but still have to catch up with other assignments! darn! why am i talking about assignments all the time..okie i have this friend..i shall not mention his name.. but i really pity him yesterday ive been thinking the problems his going trough.. imagine a guy who loves a girl so much that he decided to study with this girl here in newc.. his parents cant actually afford him here but since his parents know how much he love this girl.. they sold their property like house etc..yeah im not joking its true..so he was really happy he thought of staying with the girl.. taking care of her etc.. but as soon as he landed in newc.. the girl werent really happy seeing him..maybe shes really tired NVM.. then a few days later during her bday...when the girl is i dont know maybe drunk.. confessed to him that he dont love him anymore..btw that girl is my classmate....i was like if u dont love him anymore u should tell him from the very beginning right..so all the struggling happened no sleep etc..so one day he saw me, knowing that he saw me during her bday.. he say " hey man, i really dont have friend here, can you be my friend?"i was stone..by lookin at his face i can see problems.. knowing that his her bf i said "sure..ill show u around" that time i was with vinci.. so we showed him around..okie i shall cut the crap short im telling the whole story..

AND then.. yeah he told me all these story etc.. i really felt sorry for him..even tho it sounds gay but heck cares..so i told him the problems i had after coming here.. i was really down too like him..i stay away from girls as much as i can try not to stick togather with them because i know im still in my own misery..but as time goes jesus heals me bit by bit by keeping me busy.. telling me his good news about how to live a life..how much i miss "" but i still have to move on..but yeah im fine now thank god...so i consult him etc..and then when i got home, he sent sms to me saying " i thank god, he sent me an angel like you" i was like uhm.. okie.. ehehe an angel with tattoo on the right hand..then theres this feeling god gave me its like you see chris..you arent that bad at all.. thats because i always think that im unworthy to god..but his always there forgiving my sins.. man i really dont know wheres this going..so yeah yesterday at CF a few guest was invited to talk about missionary..then we went to this christian shop called CLC!! and guess woot? Brian gave me a free poster of "the passion of christ"!!! *bounces around in joy*. you know when i reflect back to my oldie life.. i go shops like "house of condoms", tattoo shops etc..but when i realise that i was in a christian shop.. it gives me this feeling that im already leaving my past behind..im living with everything called "christian" now...i just wonder when can i completely change into a new me! well after CLC i went back home..they was waiting for me..to drink again..im like darn big tummy! not good so yea all was drunk and went to bed..cos im lazy to write..wahh today's entry is ebit lousy dunno why.. i shalt go and play badminton now!!!!!!!