only 1 day and i miss like crazy
i dont know how this is going ler diary.. i dont even know where im heading.. guess what? i prayed over it.. and i told God that "i dont wanna continue this anymore.. maybe a non-christian is not a good idea afterall.." but the next day it goes like pooff.. there we meet again bump into each other.. then went jalan jalan buy stuff... spent must of my time in her place this week and guess what? i decided not to call today.. for the whole day because i wanna spend time fellowshipping with friends, but i failed lor.. like what i quote from the topic " i miss like crazy " so i ask God for his peace.. can't continue anymore.. then one question came into my mind.."why cant be friends first ?" hmm true but with this kinda feelings all the time ? dont wanna round out from God's track..
know what i think diary ? dont feel like looking for her anymore..coz im such a selfish bastard..my first lying aim was to tell her about christ.. but nooo I the selfish noodle went unto my own lust.. i need to keep on praying.. ppl that reads my diary pray for me also k ? one by one problems coming.. not that its God's fault but my own...like what ps. desmond said.. building relationship first.. the reason why i include the 'ing' in is because its a on going process..God really need u.. protect me with your wings.. hide me behind your shadow...make my enemy my footstool please..thanks..bye now
know what i think diary ? dont feel like looking for her anymore..coz im such a selfish bastard..my first lying aim was to tell her about christ.. but nooo I the selfish noodle went unto my own lust.. i need to keep on praying.. ppl that reads my diary pray for me also k ? one by one problems coming.. not that its God's fault but my own...like what ps. desmond said.. building relationship first.. the reason why i include the 'ing' in is because its a on going process..God really need u.. protect me with your wings.. hide me behind your shadow...make my enemy my footstool please..thanks..bye now
posted by Gaara at 7:02 AM
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hey sweety =)
hope all's good besides the girly problem. will pray for you k ;)
i remember feeling for this guy once. and then few weeks later a very close friend of mine also suka him. the thing is, i started having feelings which are not from the *Most High; jealousy, bitterness and blah blah blah. i told myself i don't want to feel this way for the guy anymore. it's really NOT WORTH being all bitter and stuff to a friend, what more a very very hou peng yu over some guy.
the night itself i prayed and told God that i didn't want this thing i have for the guy anymore. i totally and utterly surrendered it to Him and wa lah!! the next morning i woke up boh liao. i also cannot believe man! but really lor. first time sth like that happened. PTL!!
i know your situation is different from mine but i believe that if we sacrifice the object of our desire to God wholeheartedly, He'll heal you from all the not-very-the-nice feelings. And i'm sure He'll restore the joy in your heart =) And on top of that bless you more for your odedience to Him.
Hard to do, easy to say, i know. but tell me what's not difficult when it comes to kam cheng stuff??
so, chin up k dude. see ya soon. take care now. God bless.
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