i should draw a line. and now it is crossed. i should listen to people's advice. let it not be too late please. im prepared to let go.

A story like mine has never been told.

summary

shortnote: the whole bible can be summarize as such "to know christ and to made him known"

sucky day indeed.

my heart broke into pieces. today, i lost my job. broke people's window, got gang-raped by dogs. cut my finger both left and right. tired, jobless & still in the midst of looking for one. like one of those days where everything goes bad. worst thing is i broke someone's heart. sien

The Spirit and your Flesh.

Discernment time! When you are in the flesh, the nature of sin will manifest in your life. all self desires will be made conscience in your life. one can not say "i am living in the Spirit" and still have the conscience or desire to sin (Heb 10:2). for the flesh desires to please itself therefore anything that is to do with "denying himself" is of the Spirit. Mat 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man would come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. if you carry your cross and follow Jesus, the flesh will come against you and satan will oppose you, he will offer you what he offered Jesus "If you are the Son of God, bring yourself down from the cross" he will offer you fame and dominion like what he did when Jesus was tempted. all he does is to take your life off the cross But do not be afraid, for if you crucify yourself with Christ, in other words if you bring yourself to the cross death will lose its power over you.

For where the cross is demons flee, bondage is broken, love is showered upon you, Life will come after you and resurrection awaits thee. it does no requires ANY self effort but only the Grace of God. That is the reason why the psalmist in 118:26 "Tie the sacrifice with cords to the horns of the altar. in other words, let your flesh be crucified on the cross. Gal 5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." Gal 5:25 "If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit." my friend it is impossible to walk in the Spirit if your flesh is alive. no, not untill you crucify your flesh. When the flesh begins to die, faith comes alive. i think this may answer the question why people who seem to have the faith in the world receive nothing from God because that faith is produced by the flesh and the flesh cannot produce living faith.

people keep on saying "i believe, i believe, i did believe" so does the devil. my friend if that "faith" is only in your head its because your dead to the things of the Spirit. the moment self surrender, the moment the old man is gone real faith comes alive. faith that is born of the Spirit does not have to convience itself to believe. thats why when there is a result in healing people ask me "how? or why?" and i said its because your flesh is still alive or your prayer is of the flesh and not of the Spirit. it is unjust for God not to heal someone when He already testify of the truth "He was wounded for our transgression bruise for our iniquity and by His stripes we are healed". If a person is healed, praise God but if his not? we question "why?" or we give all sort of reasons born of the carnal mind like "sometimes God don't heal" do not let people rob you of this truth. dont let the goat steal your food. our faith is to believe all the time, hope all the time and love all the time that is our calling! hehe i dont know where am i going but remember this! "you shall worship the Lord your God in Spirit and in Truth"
end of story ;P

God is a matchmaker

i am currently reading "God is a MatchMaker" with the motto " do you want a marriage that is made in heaven ? " a friend of mine echo with the statement " everyone wants a marriage made in heaven " so i was thinking WHY in some relationship there is NO ongoing result? and the Spirit told me, Do you know your life being a christian brings you to the result of finding your mate? of course i said!! but the Spirit add on "So is everyone living the narrow way God has appointed for Mankind to have a successful marriage ?" err NO? than the WAY of you living a perfect christian life is no difference than the WAY you find your life partner. Derek Prince quoted from 2 Corth 6:14-15

"Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common ? or what fellowship can light have with darkness? what harmony is there between Christ and Belial? what does a believer have in common with unbeliever ?"

Paul is not telling us to be cold toward our non-christian neighbors, he is simply warning us that we cannot afford to establish with unbelievers the close relationships that are appropriate with believers. obviously he has in mind various kinds of relationships. But the first word he uses yoke is used reguarly for the marriage relationship. Paul is warning it is always wrong for a christian to marry a non-christian. You are not free to marry a non-Christian nor entertain the thought. The marriage with an unbeliever is outside of God's plan for your life. The best protection againsst wrong relationships is right relationships. Be diligent, then to cultivate fellowship and friendhsip with fellow believers. In most cases, marriage develops out of existing relationship. if you have built strong relationships with other christians, you are not likely even to contemplate marriage with a non-christian. Your safest course is to decide right NOW about the kinds of relationship you are going to cultivate.

lover of my soul~

Our precious Lord was crucified
That gray and stormy day
They hung Him high upon a cross
His prayer they heard Him say.

"Forgive them Father for they know not
What they do to me"
The blood flowed down His precious face
For everyone to see.

Jesus, God's one and only son
Who gave His life for me
He is unique, one of a kind
My Savior He'll always be.

The horror of that fateful day
So many years ago
When they crucified my Jesus
As all God's children know.

Nailed our Lord on a cross
A spear pierced deep in his side
Bolts driven in His feet and hands
As his Mother knelt and cried.

A crown of thorns on His head
Blood covered His precious brow
He cried to Heaven as thunder roared
"Father why forsake me now?"

He gave His life for you and me
The least that we can do
Is live our life for Jesus
Let Him know we love him too

Someday He will come for us
Repent and show you care
Be ready when He comes my friend
His Heavenly home you'll share.