my muscle hurts!

im falling in love to Him all over again.. lets talk a lil bit about Him.. btw people who doesnt know whois Him thinks im gay, worldy picture :P Jesus Jesus Jesus.. with him everything was made and WITHOUT, NOTHING was made how amazing.. all the mountains, birds, air and the most & not least uniquely made was Mankind..and talking about the wildest creature on earth is considered to be Humans? coz they cost everything to fall, not only that, death,diseases and femine is brought by human a.k.a ah tam(hokkien name) adam (english) to say it in human terms they bring hell up on earth as it is in hell :P my nonsense.. i was just talking to some people and suddenly my heart fall in love with Jesus again.. you know the first love with your partner but this love its different its called the agape love...

last time i tought religion is all about "DO GOOD GET GOOD, DO BAD GET BEAT" thats the point of view i get from muslim.. the stoning session when a convert tries to flee from muslim to another religion? got the idea? and i always tought that muslim is something similar to christianity, but i thank the Lord noo.. its all about His grace, his Love, mercy..no wonder He said if you see me you see Life, the Light brought down to remove darkness..aww man Jesus is so cool..and before i was a new christian, i never understand grace...i ever questioned myself askin "man if christian is do good get good and do bad get beat then why did Jesus alllowed the thief to be in paradise with Him? understand grace in order to understand that story..the divine love of our Lord Jesus...His like shouting to those people who are legalistic "ITS NOT ABOUT YOUR WORKS U CANNOT EARN YOUR WAY UP TO HEAVEN!!! BUT ITS ALL ABOUT ME!! YOUR WORKS ARE NOT STRONGER THAN MY Grace!!" awesome God..well to be honest if its all about our work, then Jesus could ask the theif to do GOOD FIRST!! then the thief will ask Him back "HOW Lord i would love too but im stuck at the cross!!" sometimes we just have to think...

the new covenant is all about grace.. its not our picture, but the picture of Jesus christ..hehe funny when people consider the gospels of math,luke,mark & john as i.e. gospel of john.. its the gospel of Jesus christ!! only one Gospel (singular) and apostle paul really wrote it clearly in Roms 1:16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God unto salvation to everyone who believes, .." ahh so glad that im still learning untill the kingdom comes.. my muscle hurts gah! long time neber exercise! well thats all diary, toddles!

tuesday day of day

what a fool i dont know bout tomorrow what its like to bee.. gosh im really tired swam like one half hours and still for others it is too short lol..i am feeling bored+tired now.. i really miss smiling while walking and i do it real good today i mean the peace of God which surpasses all human understanding is guarding my heart..i use to call all those people whois praising God on the street as crazy+mad+stupid+taktahumalu+c2pid..now i know why people could sing out loud praising good..and these people are those who have really close intemacy with God well most of em..not saying myself la but THOSE.. i smell like a pool now i dont know why..did took my bath but the smell is still there and yes i did take my bath properly..

know what i really want a digital camera right now.. need to record down my life and sometimes as memories, i can just view it again and start thinking how stupid am i before.. suddenly my mood change crappy me... and i was just wondering how on earth AM i gonna get married..im soo soo ahh out of expectation in other words, lame..fully agree that i am t0 the max weak in the sense of a responsible person and character wise..just imagine that i have nothing man, not even a standard..im gonna be straight forward now really like those straight forward type.. what am i talking..God i just pray for open doors for the course im applying in and Lord i dont wanna be like thoese israelites going round and round the 'thang' for years if its not of your will send me back home.. im prepared. i got your picture, but i need a louder voice..like a horn from you so i can trigger your call.. just a loud shout God..thank you for your amazing grace these days and thank you for showing me whats life is all about..in Jesus name i pray and ask AMEN..

FULL MOON SWEARS!

i am so angry!!! im so pist off? i dont know what kinda feeling is this i mean im gonna blow man... and the inner me is saying "FUCKKKKKKK JUST LET IT GOOOOO LET IT BURST!!" i got so many shit to handle... crap man my pants its gonna drop anytime!!! yes u call it 'foo lat' in cantonese..man im so mad at Adam now you know why? cos he cost all this to happened i bet when we all go up to heaven alot of people is gonna look for Adam.. and guess what ? his mansion is gonna be HEAVENLY SECURED! alot angels around..why?? coz ill be the first one to find his blooming ass beat the shit out of him coz he ate the fucking fruit.... i cannot tahan man so many problemssssss and i dont fucking believe its from God..coz this is a fallen earth and sometimes shit happends because of our own fault..soo i did personally ask myself.. God is this from you..

ahh i was brought to a verse James 1:12-15-17 Jam 1:12 Blessed is the man who endures temptation, because having been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Jam 1:13 Let no one being tempted say, I am tempted from God. For God is not tempted by evils, and He tempts no one. Jam 1:14 But each one is tempted by his lusts, being drawn away and seduced by them. Jam 1:15 Then when lust has conceived, it brings forth sin. And sin, when it is fully formed, brings forth death. Jam 1:16 Do not err, my beloved brothers. Jam 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness nor shadow of turning.

uhuh so true...man shit crap la i donno what to do...just trust in the Lord of host.. the captain and commander of the ship the one who said "it is done!!!"...patient man well anyways writing this just to let go of every smelly shit crap in me.. Lord i thank you for the cross, that everyyy SINS are punished and every dieases are healed.. thanks just that argh its ME!! your peace will guard my heart yes it will :)

big news!

finally vincent's a daddy and man im so proud of him!!!!!!!! man im even more proud than him..on wednesday we shall visit that lil dude..owh thank God for the smooth process of labouring.. adonai...well everything seems to be running well just that cynthia is a little bit weak right now.. well dohh ppl just gave birth weii..man i dont know this feeling la sooo darn excited and thankful LIKE that kid is mineeeee...wahh i cannot imagine man holding my future wife's hand saying "pushh pushh" now dont blame me thats what they do in ER learned it from the show..man this week been really ugh how to say 'kanasai' aiya i dont know la i've not been feeding the word of God thats why..owh talking about that, ahh forget it.

aiyooooooooo tomorrow got alot things to do man!!! have to fetch people from airport, have to go check out the new house my goodness, man i have to climb back up to the Lord again.. really i cannot have peace with out the peace of God lor..man this week i even think of not being a christian anymore? you see!!! the devil is telling me.. alot of nonsense like "your not good enough, of course people can say it so easy because they dont have the same shit you used to have etc etc" then ill shoot back of course im not good enough but Jesus is good enough and i receive not from you but His grace.. man mr sa tan dont really changes his script do he..his still the same hauhuah...and man i have this feeling that some of my friends is falling on my xfriends side..love chris love grrr knock knock! whos there man! mr devil hehe my tots these few days really grrr 'kanasai' well need to climb back up to His lap...man im so glad that we have so many things to learn un!!!

man this is so good!!!

this is something that caught my eye and its sooo true.. bring back old memories ngek!

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival,your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call!At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail fromthat special someone than other many long e-mails,you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all themessages in your answering machine because of one messagefrom that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you wouldnot hesitate to think of that special someone.Then, you are in love. and it goes onn and on again... ahhh!