Here am i, Send me Lord!

ahh its been a long time since i wrote..just came back from kl and lawas..well as for the things in kl was done fine, i got a few advice from the regional officer and am glad that the result i received can be taken as admission for masters, praise The Lord..well appeal is on its way, i wrote my letter of appeal and soon hoping for their reply in order for me to gain back 3rd class Hons 2 more points left.. and i really praise The Lord that my friends in miri, kl and UK (u know who u r) took the opportunity to encourage and advice me hehe *tears flowing all over*. yea hopefully mr chris got through the appeal and admission..now is the time for a child-like faith.. you know when your small and your dad promised to buy that 'toy' your hungry for and you really kept in mind that your gonna have the 'toy' because He promised? that is how when children pray they actually get what they want :P 'be still and know that i am God.'

lawas is really beautifull wow was really proud of my dad.. everything is complete and i thank The Lord that we're having our church camp the and really glad that dad let us use that place..i mean its really nice for a church camp because of the view, atmosphere, THE BEACH? walla!! ahh everything la goodie goodie praise The Lord. so i just came back from the hospital..gosh really my heart bleeds when i see the suffering of the patients infact my heart is crying. i feel like telling them about Jesus and pray for all of them but god my tears is just gonna come out when i see them.. noo i wont let this stop me next time..went to hospital to visit thomas he kena strok so go there and pray for him encourage him not to lose hope for 2/3 of Jesus ministry on earth is TO HEAL!! Luke 8:26 and I TELL YOU HE DONT EVEN MIND COMING DOWN ON EARTH IF THERES ONE PERSON LEFT TO HEAL!! just like what he did to the demon possessed man, cross across the lake just to HEAL him.. how wonderful that is ? HE IS WORTHY!!!! WORTHY IS THE LAMB!! let us all say "I LOVE YOU JESUS!!" the doctor has to quit their job!! no business!! then they have to change their job from a doctor to a preacher! haha nice :P well i guess thats all diary bearrrrrrrrr huggggggggggggggg!!

Blessed are those who know Jesus.

hiye, doing really great.. received many blessings from Daddy hehe.. yeah i guess he healed me real soon..finish organizing the library already and boy some sermons i heard from the tape was good.. really woke me up..and The Holy Spirit been telling me something these few days not only me but couple of church members too.. and we go like "yea!! thats it!! its harvest time!!" we agreed at the same time.. so i believed that this year is a year of harvest.. gogogo!! serve him serve that Lord almighty.. preach the Holy Bible for the Day is near.. go and harvest the ripe fruit..to recall back, when i was in singapore he talked about the harvest too..so serve The Lord while you still can..tell everyone about the Gospel..dont be shy noo dont be shy for Him..let them have the blessings..let them know our Lord Jesus Christ...let everyone near you receive salvation..for the harvest time is near.. the harvest time is near...dont be scared because His presence is always with you...ohh wonderful indeed our saviour Jesus...come on guys dont stay in comfort..dont hide your lamp under the table..let it shine for all to see.. let the light shine through the darkness...let satan grieve in pain! yes.. satan hates people standing up again he hates those who quit and stand up again.. let him grieve show him that our Lord Jesus Christ is the Alpha and Omega.. The Word of everlasting life..Hallelujah praise The Lord..

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

IM SO FUCKED NOW THAT I JUST FUCKING RECEIVE NEWS FROM VINCI THAT I FUCKING FAILED MY FUCKING FINAL YEAR PROJECT.. MY GRADE FOR PREVIOUS SEMESTER IS ABOVE AVARAGE AND NOW WHEN LINDA SPENCER AND HAYDEN AS MY SUPERVISOR AND SECOND MARKER HAD RUIN MY FUCKING DEGREE.. FUCK MAN I REALLY HATE THIS FEELING.. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FUCK!! FUCK YOU. I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO A MISSIONARY BUT WHY CANT YOU LET ME COMPLETE MY MASTER FIRST?????? WHY CANT U LET ME SETTLE MYSELF DOWN FIRST.. WHY BREAK MY HEART NOWWWWWWWWW GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!! I KNOW ITS JUST A DEGREE IM COOL WITH IT BUT HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA TELL MY FUCKED UP FATHER THAT RAISED ME UP LIKE A FUCKING LOONEY? TELL ME HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA TELL MY FUCKING MOM THAT FUCKS A MALAY HUSBAND ? FUCK MAN!!!! AND FUCK THE DEVIL TOO.. FUCK!! I JUST SMSED MY DAD I TOLD HIM THAT IF I COULDNT FUCKING APPEAL FOR AT LEAST A DEGREE, IM GONNA BE A MISSIONARY OR PASTOR OR SOMETHING U HAPPY NOW? I KNOW YOUR NOT FUCK!

LORD I JUST WISH THAT A CAR RUNS THROUGH ME NOW..IM SERIOUS EVEN THO MY FATHER CARED NEVER OR LESS FUCK LA U THINK I WONT FEEL GUILTY? HAHA GUESS WHAT MY FATHER SAY ? APPEAL FOR REPEAT OR RESIT.. RESIT FUCK MEH I RATHER DO DIFFERENT COURSE LO....BUT FUCK MAN FULL OF FUCK LA THIS WORLD...DONT KNOW WHAT AM I TYPING NOW.. FATHER CALLED BUT I SWITCHED OFF THE PHONEEEE HEEE.. AH ILL STAY IN MY ROOM WHOLE DAY LONG TODAY..GO OUT SHOW HAVE TO TELL MY FRIENDS THE BAD NEWS LAGI PIST OFF FUCK THIS WORLD LA FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEART REALLY REALLY CUTS ALOT GOD!! HOPE U HEAL ME SOON..