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my heart is healed from a big tear. i guess disappointment is the kind of fear i am afraid of. why am i going round and round again i ask myself. i tought i made a promise to myself not to fall into that same hole again. this time the hole is deep and i hit really hard on the ground that the feeling is as if my heart have a hole. why am i such a slow learner i ask God, and why must it has the same situation as before, i cried. but worry no more for i am healed a lil wound left but i am healed. i am not writing this entry in disappointment, im not, but rather a log i might want to read back in future and laugh at myself.

a lil bit of recap, what sort of girl do you like she asked, but i refused to tell whispering at my own heart, i said " a girl like you ". i smiled back and replied, it is not my time yet i suppose. so i add on in a funny way "no girl would want someone like me" she smiled and said something i should not type coz its not humble lol. hmm this should remind me in future =)

pain

dear Lord my hearth is hurting please heal me. Amen

shalom

shortnote: God is the living God, but He is more than just being alive. He IS life, the source. God does not draw life from anywhere else, only from Himself. He does not depend an anything else for life, and can never be let down. He does not need sustenance for He sustains all things. John 1:4 “In Him is life and the life was the light of men

yep.

i was at dinner today with the same bunch, on my right was michelle and left was leo lee, and as i count all of them at the table, all of them are either attached or married. i ask God "when is my turn?" then out of a sudden, i gave myself a big smile assuring myself that Jesus is saving yours for the best. That smile is of God together with the presence of "YES!! or OMPH!" meaning SURE THE BEST ONE.

watched memoirs of geisha the story began with the quote "My story is sad to be told" truly a brilliant movie. not really good at commenting, but the story line and video shoot was very impressive. i admire japanese culture so much of discipline i must say, the people,life style, communication are the things i got attracted to. their fashion of communication is in a way profound to me. japanese girls is always quiet and speaks only when required.. ahhh so like my dream girl..despite of her looks too. im off tired ;)

Questions.

i got a question here, Why did Jesus heal all ?

in spirit and in truth.

quote of the day "The Gospel creates the desire for a good life, the will to perform and the power to change. In Christ people can repent; without the Spirit they cannot. That is why our preaching must be in the Spirit. He is the effective element. Our words may be logical but the Spirit plants reasons in the heart. "

hahah yay

short note: went clubbing for class reunion.. phone number retrived = 0 jajaja not bad not bad